I wrote my last post about six months ago. For those of you that still check in on my blog, I am sorry to have left you hanging. Yes, I’ve been busy. And yes, the cancer updates have thankfully slowed. But I don’t think those are the reasons I’ve failed to write. Strangely enough, sometimes sharing good news is almost more difficult than sharing bad news. I don’t want to come across like I am bragging. Or worse, I don’t want to jinx all the great things that are bubbling up.
But all of you have been through so much with me—you deserve to hear a little good news, too. I want you to know that my life is pretty wonderful right now. And I have a lot of exciting updates to share with you…
1. Jamin and I got engaged. He proposed to me in our studio surrounded by hundreds of flickering candles. It was the most perfect engagement—definitely a moment I will remember forever. Two days afterward, we jetted off to Italy for a vacation full of delicious food, rich history and bottomless glasses of wine. I cannot begin to express how excited I am to marry Jamin. He is an amazing man and will undoubtedly make an incredible husband. It almost seems like a wedding is just a formality for us. We have already shown that we will be true to one another in good times and bad, in sickness and in health. But don’t worry, there will be a beautiful wedding and an amazing party to follow.
2. As of April 24th, I am officially one year cancer free. The anniversaries of a cancer patient are important ones, as each year out is another year of a life reclaimed. I’m happy to report that there are days, even weeks, that I don’t think about cancer. And when I do, it feels like a more distant memory. These days my darkest moments seem more superficial—the occasional meltdown in the Victoria Secret dressing room as I try to figure out my new body, or my impatience with my hair not growing quickly enough. But those problems I can handle.
3. I quit my job and am going to nursing school. While my departure from advertising has been a long time coming, my diagnosis certainly affected the rate and direction of my career move. I became a student of my own experience the moment I got sick. And the more time I spent with my nurses, the more I realized that I wanted to become one. I am certain that my experience with cancer will make me a better, more empathetic practitioner. After a year of taking my science courses online, I was accepted to an accelerated nursing program.
4. Which brings me to my last exciting update—we are moving to Portland. All of us. Jamin has already started a Masters of Urban Planning program at Portland State University. And I begin classes at Oregon Health and Science University at the end of June. What’s even more exciting is that my family is moving, too. My parents have wanted to move out west for awhile now, and all the stars aligned when they sold their house in Indiana. We are all moving out together. Tomorrow. After all we have been through, I am so excited to begin this next adventure. Sunday dinners at my parents’ house, hikes with my sister and her boyfriend, and studying at the coffee shop with my fiancé. It is all too perfect. Not to mention that two of my very best friends in the world, Kevin and Maggie, are also living there.
Well, there it is. About eighteen months ago, I thought my world was ending. But with the support, prayers and love from each and every one of you, I have come out on the other side. Thank you for helping me through the darker days so I can continue to enjoy the bright ones.
What will happen to my blog? I’m not sure. I want to write again. Maybe about cancer, maybe not. Maybe about this next adventure. But for now, just know that I am better. I am the happiest I have been in a long time. And I could not have done it without you.